Only Hope

I feel uncertain and hopeless
I'm confused
It feels like an endless race
I feel fooled by nonsense courage

I want to close my eyes
to what others say
and really just focus on you God
But it's hard, it's very hard
I need your help

You, with the true courage
I realize I can't trust anyone
You, have the true hope
I realize I can't depend on anything.


He answered me (yet again!) ^^~

As you all know I'm getting married soon. Wesley and I planned to do marriage course in our church. We asked one of our pastor and he said he will let us know if it's already fully booked or there's still space. If not, he's gonna arrange it to be this September.

You know, I was a bit confused honestly. Not much of scared, but just don't know if this is really God's plan. I mean, everything works out together, a proof that it is God's plan. But you know, as human, I'm worried that this is not His plan.

So I prayed on Sunday night, asking God if this is really His plan for us to get married soon, if it is then maybe we can get the marriage course as soon as possible too so I feel confident in doing this.

I went working on Monday, didn't really think about this marriage course anymore, just like do my day. Animating ^^
Then Wesley let me know that the pastor just called and say we're starting the marriage course THIS Sunday! I was like, O_O . Wow, it is God's plan. And after Wesley told me that I just feel really peaceful and confident.

I can't say anything but "WOW, Thanks God!"

Another cool song of Chris Tomlin, Indescribable.

Indescribable (Arriving Album Version) - Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God


Un-comfort Zone

I'm so down and ready to drown
I can't stand it anymore
But nothing I can do
I just have to do it

No matter how much I cry
It won't change anything
I want to quit
But I have my world depend on me

I want to stop
But I'm scared
Scared of the result, scared of changes
This is my un-comfort zone

I wrote this in my notebook as I was really confused with stuff in my small little world. But again, somehow I was listening to this song. It's like I fell down on the ground, but He lifted me up ^^. Taught me to be satisfied in life.

*all this happening at work when I zone out animating. ^^p*

Enough (Acoustic) (See The Morning SE Album Version) - Chris Tomlin


SO, God showed His awesome miracles to our family, yet again! ^^

My dad is recovering from the strokes. MRI test result showed that his darker mark in his brain (caused by strokes) is almost disappeared. My mom told me few weeks ago. Just go the time to post. Yes, he's still in process of recovering, indeed, but things work out really well. Thanks for all your prayers. Praise God for everything. Lots of stuff happening in my life, happiness and sadness, but when I just hang on to Him, really just put hope 100% in Him, it doesn't seem too hard because I know I have the ultimate not-gonna-fail hope.

I also see a dear friend of mine experienced hardship in life and I'm really proud of her. Yes she doesn't get what she wants, but seeing her rise again with her hope in Christ, seeing her facing it, hanging on His promises, encourages me a lot.
I heard stories about how God works through testimonies from bible study friends also makes me grow in faith.

Truly, God works in ways that I can't even wonder how this is happening. And yes, my small little world was cluttered with troubles that seems like there's the no way out. But yes! God works in His time and somehow miracles happen to those who believe in Him! ^^ *happie happie happie*

Check this out

Mark 9: 21-24
Mark 11:22-26

I got those verses when I did my night devotion; I was really depressed and just really cried out to God saying , 'I can't do this alone, I need Your help, please lift all these from me. Why can't You heal my dad? Please.'

Mark 11:24, Jesus said, "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

Two of my friends said that to me too, but I didn't really pray with full faith power for my dad, but then I got Jesus said that straight to me through the bible when I was really down. The Holy Spirit put courage in me to pray that way saying, "God I know you heal my dad." And yeah, He heal my dad! Even doctors was like, "Wow, this is truly a miracle from God".

Can't say anything anymore. Thanks God!


in His time

In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful in His time.
Lord, please show me everyday,
as You're teaching me Your way
that You'll do just what You say in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring.
May each song I have to sing
be to You a lovely thing in Your time.

It is a lovely Sunday school song that I like since ever. I was singing praise tonight and played this song again, and I feel the Lord just strengthen me for everything that I've been through.

My dad has been sick for 3 years, and I barely see him since I live in the other side of the world. I can't really do anything, except praying for him. I love him so much. And I'm really proud of my mom. For me, she's the perfect wife that I always look up to.

I'm really really sad, especially I just got another 'not so good' news again about him. Just FEEL like screaming and asking God, why is this happening to our family? But as I listen to this song again, I felt God already answer my question (that I don't really want to ask God directly). He works in ways I can't understand, but He knows the perfect timing and He will make everything beautiful.
He might not give me what I want, but He KNOWS exactly what I need, what the family needs, and I have faith in Him. I'm so glad I have Someone that really be there for me and just, really, know the perfect timing. I've seen lots of His perfect timing in my life and yes, He opens my eyes to really realize how everything works together perfectly.

Yes, I know my dad is still sick, I know things are still tangled. But I also know that He's gonna give our family what's the best in His eyes which is mean the best for our family. And as for now, I know He holds my hand, my dad's hand, my mom's and my sisters'. He's with us.

Yes I'm sad, but I feel peaceful. That's a feeling that I can't really describe.


Easter at Willingdon Church

Good Friday Service
Friday, April 10th 2009
11.00 am and 1.00 pm

Easter Service
Saturday April 11th 2009
6.30 pm

Sunday, April 12th 2009
8.30am ; 10.00 am ; 11.30 am

Willingdon Church

4812 Willingdon Avenue
Burnaby BC, Canada
V5G 3H6

Still - Hillsong