Only Hope

I feel uncertain and hopeless
I'm confused
It feels like an endless race
I feel fooled by nonsense courage

I want to close my eyes
to what others say
and really just focus on you God
But it's hard, it's very hard
I need your help

You, with the true courage
I realize I can't trust anyone
You, have the true hope
I realize I can't depend on anything.

He answered me (yet again!) ^^~

As you all know I'm getting married soon. Wesley and I planned to do marriage course in our church. We asked one of our pastor and he said he will let us know if it's already fully booked or there's still space. If not, he's gonna arrange it to be this September.

You know, I was a bit confused honestly. Not much of scared, but just don't know if this is really God's plan. I mean, everything works out together, a proof that it is God's plan. But you know, as human, I'm worried that this is not His plan.

So I prayed on Sunday night, asking God if this is really His plan for us to get married soon, if it is then maybe we can get the marriage course as soon as possible too so I feel confident in doing this.

I went working on Monday, didn't really think about this marriage course anymore, just like do my day. Animating ^^
Then Wesley let me know that the pastor just called and say we're starting the marriage course THIS Sunday! I was like, O_O . Wow, it is God's plan. And after Wesley told me that I just feel really peaceful and confident.

I can't say anything but "WOW, Thanks God!"


Another cool song of Chris Tomlin, Indescribable.

Indescribable (Arriving Album Version) - Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Un-comfort Zone

I'm so down and ready to drown
I can't stand it anymore
But nothing I can do
I just have to do it

No matter how much I cry
It won't change anything
I want to quit
But I have my world depend on me

I want to stop
But I'm scared
Scared of the result, scared of changes
This is my un-comfort zone

I wrote this in my notebook as I was really confused with stuff in my small little world. But again, somehow I was listening to this song. It's like I fell down on the ground, but He lifted me up ^^. Taught me to be satisfied in life.


*all this happening at work when I zone out animating. ^^p*

Enough (Acoustic) (See The Morning SE Album Version) - Chris Tomlin