Jewish Odyssey

I don't know what the songs saying, but as I'm listening to Jewish songs, I cant help myself but giving thanks and praise to the Lord, our Saviour Jesus Christ; how grateful I am to be one of the chosen one. Gospels and the chosen nation is originally only for the Jewish nation. But by the grace and mercy alone from our Lord Jesus Christ, I'm chosen as well. It's amazing how the Lord delivers salvation to the world through Jesus Christ, his only Son. And by faith only, I'm saved. Thanks and praise be to God!

Prayin' For You - Lecrae

Father God, I'm prayin' to you for somebody, who knows you Lord but just hasn't, hasn't been seein' you in the right view lately, Hear me out...

Father, I'm prayin' for a friend he and I are pretty close, and out of all my friends for this one I'm concerned the most. He say he readin' daily but he ain't really learnin'. He been in church but say that he ain't moved by any sermon. His face weak, he ain't prayed in a week, he wake up and just weep with his face in the sink Lord, you gotta help my man, I'm prayin' for him daily, he ain't sinned but it just seem as if he goin' crazy. He say he feelin' trapped, can't even head up the mall coz every lady's half-dressed temptin' him to lust and fall. He keep the TV off, videos just make him feel that he ain't really nothin' without money, girls and shiny wheels. The other day he told me that he felt less a man coz he ain't have a five-year plan or a piece of land and man it's crazy coz his family think so much of him, plus he got a godly wife who always showin' love for him but he's strugglin', even though he talk to me, I tell him what to do but he don't listen when he oughta' be. I'm scared for him coz there's people that look up to him, he got some younger siblings who been changed by what he's done for them but is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me, is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

God, his condition is worsen since we were last conversed and I'm with him now and he ain't doin' well and this I'm certain. He say he tryna' trust you, doesn't wanna disgust you but he was in the mist of sinners and did not discuss you and just today his anxiety's got the best of him, he knows Christ but for hours refuse to rest in Him, he's not the best of men but Lord I know he really loves you and I can't understand why lately he's not thinkin' of you. People trust this dude, you could crush this dude, Father he needs more of you I pray you touch this dude, what can I say to him? I'm determined to pray for him Father empty and brake him I pray you'll just have your way with him, coz there's a change in him and the effects are strong, I pray you open up his heart before the next song and when he gets home, I pray he'll open up the sixty-six book love letter you wrote and soak it up coz he ain't hearin' You and he ain't feelin' me and God I know it's killin' You because it's killin' me and matter of fact there's somethin' else he's concealin' see, the person that I've been prayin' about is really me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...



verse in the italics is really got into me"

Happy Birthday To My Youngest Sister!

My youngest sister, Clairine Yoanna Antonio , is turning 17 today! She's having a sweet 17 (yes, it's 17 in my culture, not 16 ) this weekend.
I made her an invitation card as birthday present. Hope she likes it because I prayed about it to get a cool idea, and I think it's pretty cool.

And here's the link to the video that I made for her.
Video!

Praise You In This Storm

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Because He Lives!

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

Doing laundry in the afternoon, playing iTunes on the side, made me think a lot about life. About the mystery of life that I KNOW will be amazing; yet scary since I have no idea what's waiting (or prepared) in the future.

Then this song played. Thank God. Just at the right time.

I cant wait to go to church.

Have a good weekend people!


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Morning Prayer

As everyone goes out in the morning to start their day, things are getting slow as I don't have to go out and work. (Yep, I'm looking for work out there)

I prayed in my quiet alone time.

"Dear Heavenly Father,
Thanks for the pretty morning today, its raining, and giving cool temperature for my apartment.
Thanks for Wesley that already went to work, also thanks for the food that you provided to us.
Guide us today, so we will live this day according to your purpose creating us, be more close to you.
Protect Wesley so he can arrive at work safe and can work his best.

Protect my parents at home. Thanks for giving Dad health each day a little step at the time, there's always bumps in the process but it makes us grow closer to You. Thanks for Mom that's strong and always face things in positive ways. Thanks for keeping her healthy and please God, be close to her as she needed you more and more each day.

Bless Vin, so she will have good time at the new school and she would have friends that bring her closer to You each day. Thanks for giving her wisdom and keeping her safe.

Bless Claire, so she will be closer to You everyday as she's alone at home. Thanks for giving her cheerful attitude and let her be cheerful too at home.

Protect my grandparents, my friends, my relatives else where.

Thanks for giving me this slow day, so that I can stop and pray to You. Thanks for Your unconditional love to me. Thanks for everything.

In Your Name Jesus, I prayed, Amen. "

I'm 7th!

Thank God! I came in 7th place for August 2009 11SecondClub.

Here's the link to my final entry. As always rendered by my lovely fiance, Wesley. Congrats to u too, Wesley! <3

http://www.11secondclub.com/competitions/august09/entry/8GrhQX/

Walk on. really inspiring video.

http://vodpod.com/watch/1165857-walk-on-espn-video

"If I fall, I fall, it's just another challenge, I'm gonna fall, its just the way it is, I'm gonna do it , so you know what, you get back up and you learn from your mistakes, and you dont do it again."

"If you have a dream, go after it, don't let anybody say you can't do something."

-DJ Gregory-

i love love his hairstyle.

just wait people, Wesley's hair will look like David Cook's!

gyahahaha~

^____________^ ~"

Through it all.

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteeousness
And I look to You and
I wait on You


I'll sing to You Lord, a hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go, through it all
Hallelujah, hallelujah

I simply thank You.

Into Your hands, I commit again,
All that I am, for You, Lord.
You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand.
And I am Yours, forever.

Jesus, I believe in You.
Jesus, I belong to You.
You're the reason that I live,
The reason that I sing,
With all I am.

I'll walk with You, wherever You go.
Through tears and joy,
I'll trust in You.
And I will live, in all of Your ways
And Your promises, forever.

I will worship,
I will worship You.



Thank God for everything, blessings, trials, guidance, troubles, tough times, everything. It builds me stronger each and everyday. I simply thank God that He is near. Storms and thunders in life cant beat me. I will win in this race, I won't give up. God is good. And I trust him 100%. Nothing can change my love for you, God. I'm the strongest when I'm in the hardest moment, all because of God's love.

4th! Hee ~

By the way, I'm 4th on July competition 11 Second Club! Thanks to people that voted for me. Thanks to Wesley helping me rendering! Thank God!

Here's my final entry.

L o v e . L o v e ~

Happy couple years and couple months Wesley Chandler!

its not exaggeration after all.

you know, cartoon always exaggerate character got scared by jumping off the ground? they're not exaggeration. it actually happened, at least to me. my sister 'knock' my door so hard, this poor little calista busy animating, jump off the bed got scared, so bad.

like this.

I will rise.

I'm going through tough times, my family has problem that we have to face, and yeah, it’s hard. I prayed and felt that my prayer is just hitting the ceiling and felt that God didn’t listen. Of course not, He listens, but I felt that way. Then I read Purpose Driven Life, I was on chapter 14.

It’s about Job, how he felt that God didn’t say anything to him during his tough times. I can’t say it’s like my condition because mine now is nothing compared to Job’s. I learn from Job, he told God what he felt about his tough times, he’s ruined in people’s point of view but he still believe in God, believe that God is good, faithful and will help him somehow! Ha!

God is here when I need him. He didn’t really remove my problems, but He strengthens me. Again. He’s good. He’s faithful and somehow He will help my family through this hardship at the right times.

I remember a verse saying, He makes all things wonderful at the right time. Bible didn’t say in the end of time it would be wonderful, Bible said wonderful at the right time. I was praying waiting for God just to finish all this, yes I put hope in Him but I was wrong that I was waiting to the end. Suddenly God speaks to me through the verse that I once read somewhere in the bible, that God makes all things wonderful in HIS time. Who are we to judge when the right time for us?

Purpose Driven Life chapter 14 also mention some practical ways when God ‘seems’ to be far away. Tell God exactly how you feel. Focus on God’s never changing personality and promises. Believe that God keeps His promises. Remember what He’s done for us.

It hits me when I read explanation for focus on God’s never changing personality and promises; He’s good, He loves me, He’s with me, He knows what I experience, He cares, and He has good plan for my life.
Job’s condition is way worse than my family’s now, but He still able to hold on God’s promises and even praise Him. Wow. The power of God in him. If Job can do it, my family can do it too, I can do it too. Praise the Lord!

Prayer Warrior (Pray, then Smile!)

Lots of things happening this very morning. The 'not so good' moments according to people's perspective. I'm pretty stressed at that moment. As I was going through every step of recovering, I prayed alone in my room. Pour out everything in tears to Him, because I can't even say anything anymore. More like a cry for help. After a while, then I phoned my other half and ask him to pray for me. I also ask my bible study friends to pray with me.

God talks to me through prayer that Wesley prayed for me, through song that was played at that moment, through the bible. I was looking for answers and strength in it and God is answering at the right time. He said through the bible, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)"

I found that verse at the very deep of slope that I might give up, but He lifted me again, He spoke to me, He told me that as long as I love Him still, all things work together for good, what ever that is.

I am now expecting the unexpected, something that's never in mind, (who ask for problems to be honest?) that's unthinkable, everything is for good. Just count on God for everything since He's the one that own our life.

Lots of things happening in life, but I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39) Amen. How peaceful is that? God is in control! =)

Yet again, I have friends to pray for me, I have God helping me pray, I have lots of prayer warriors, what more can I ask? =)

smile!

11SecondClub

Yellow!
Sorry for not updating in a while, I've been busy with 11SecondClub, an monthly online animation competition.
Voting is allowed from 1st until 5th day of August. Please vote! It's fun seeing good animation around you. Happy <3

Here's my entry. It's called Red Watch-man. C&C are appreciated!

Keep holding on.

Faith in myself reeled in nothing, but faith in God through prayer reeled in more than I can imagine!

That's what my other half share to me yesterday. I'm really happy and thankful that he now knows my Source of life and strength; and he can be my agent when I'm down and feel lost.

During this time of life, I felt lost, almost about everything. About career and family to be honest. It's actually probably NOT THAT BAD of a situation, even I know it's not. But for just a split second of my life, I didn't want to be tough. I'm confused about stuff that doesn't need to be confused about because I know He's in control. I just have to open my eyes and open doors for Him to close it and show me way. The thing is, I felt tired to open my eyes. Ha! Dilemma that doesn't even need to be one! Sigh..

ANYWAYS.. Enough weakness.

In my devotion, I read from 2 Timothy 4 : 7. It's when Paul was almost get persecuted and he reminded Timothy to be a good soldier of Christ. He said, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith."

WOW.. I read it couple times because God just 'slap' me with realization. That my live is not mine, it's His, and it's my duty to glorify Him with my live. What's the problem with rocks and storms in life? I'm not in control, GOD is.

So from now, I'm gonna keep these words in my heart, mind and soul.
"I want to fight a good fight, I want to finish the race, I want to keep the faith. And I will." So later, in the end of the day, I will say Paul's words with confident in front of Him, my God.

Faith in myself reeled in nothing, but faith in God through prayer reeled in more than I can imagine!

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I think I'm Beautiful...

This felt so lonely. Sigh..

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