10.22.2009

Prayin' For You - Lecrae

Father God, I'm prayin' to you for somebody, who knows you Lord but just hasn't, hasn't been seein' you in the right view lately, Hear me out...

Father, I'm prayin' for a friend he and I are pretty close, and out of all my friends for this one I'm concerned the most. He say he readin' daily but he ain't really learnin'. He been in church but say that he ain't moved by any sermon. His face weak, he ain't prayed in a week, he wake up and just weep with his face in the sink Lord, you gotta help my man, I'm prayin' for him daily, he ain't sinned but it just seem as if he goin' crazy. He say he feelin' trapped, can't even head up the mall coz every lady's half-dressed temptin' him to lust and fall. He keep the TV off, videos just make him feel that he ain't really nothin' without money, girls and shiny wheels. The other day he told me that he felt less a man coz he ain't have a five-year plan or a piece of land and man it's crazy coz his family think so much of him, plus he got a godly wife who always showin' love for him but he's strugglin', even though he talk to me, I tell him what to do but he don't listen when he oughta' be. I'm scared for him coz there's people that look up to him, he got some younger siblings who been changed by what he's done for them but is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me, is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

God, his condition is worsen since we were last conversed and I'm with him now and he ain't doin' well and this I'm certain. He say he tryna' trust you, doesn't wanna disgust you but he was in the mist of sinners and did not discuss you and just today his anxiety's got the best of him, he knows Christ but for hours refuse to rest in Him, he's not the best of men but Lord I know he really loves you and I can't understand why lately he's not thinkin' of you. People trust this dude, you could crush this dude, Father he needs more of you I pray you touch this dude, what can I say to him? I'm determined to pray for him Father empty and brake him I pray you'll just have your way with him, coz there's a change in him and the effects are strong, I pray you open up his heart before the next song and when he gets home, I pray he'll open up the sixty-six book love letter you wrote and soak it up coz he ain't hearin' You and he ain't feelin' me and God I know it's killin' You because it's killin' me and matter of fact there's somethin' else he's concealin' see, the person that I've been prayin' about is really me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...



verse in the italics is really got into me"

10.16.2009

Happy Birthday To My Youngest Sister!

My youngest sister, Clairine Yoanna Antonio , is turning 17 today! She's having a sweet 17 (yes, it's 17 in my culture, not 16 ) this weekend.
I made her an invitation card as birthday present. Hope she likes it because I prayed about it to get a cool idea, and I think it's pretty cool.

And here's the link to the video that I made for her.
Video!

10.01.2009

Praise You In This Storm



I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

9.12.2009

Because He Lives!


Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!


Doing laundry in the afternoon, playing iTunes on the side, made me think a lot about life. About the mystery of life that I KNOW will be amazing; yet scary since I have no idea what's waiting (or prepared) in the future.

Then this song played. Thank God. Just at the right time.

I cant wait to go to church.

Have a good weekend people!


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9.09.2009

Morning Prayer



As everyone goes out in the morning to start their day, things are getting slow as I don't have to go out and work. (Yep, I'm looking for work out there)

I prayed in my quiet alone time.

"Dear Heavenly Father,
Thanks for the pretty morning today, its raining, and giving cool temperature for my apartment.
Thanks for Wesley that already went to work, also thanks for the food that you provided to us.
Guide us today, so we will live this day according to your purpose creating us, be more close to you.
Protect Wesley so he can arrive at work safe and can work his best.

Protect my parents at home. Thanks for giving Dad health each day a little step at the time, there's always bumps in the process but it makes us grow closer to You. Thanks for Mom that's strong and always face things in positive ways. Thanks for keeping her healthy and please God, be close to her as she needed you more and more each day.

Bless Vin, so she will have good time at the new school and she would have friends that bring her closer to You each day. Thanks for giving her wisdom and keeping her safe.

Bless Claire, so she will be closer to You everyday as she's alone at home. Thanks for giving her cheerful attitude and let her be cheerful too at home.

Protect my grandparents, my friends, my relatives else where.

Thanks for giving me this slow day, so that I can stop and pray to You. Thanks for Your unconditional love to me. Thanks for everything.

In Your Name Jesus, I prayed, Amen. "

9.05.2009

I'm 7th!


Thank God! I came in 7th place for August 2009 11SecondClub.

Here's the link to my final entry. As always rendered by my lovely fiance, Wesley. Congrats to u too, Wesley! <3

http://www.11secondclub.com/competitions/august09/entry/8GrhQX/

8.21.2009

Walk on. really inspiring video.

http://vodpod.com/watch/1165857-walk-on-espn-video

"If I fall, I fall, it's just another challenge, I'm gonna fall, its just the way it is, I'm gonna do it , so you know what, you get back up and you learn from your mistakes, and you dont do it again."

"If you have a dream, go after it, don't let anybody say you can't do something."

-DJ Gregory-

i love love his hairstyle.








just wait people, Wesley's hair will look like David Cook's!

gyahahaha~

^____________^ ~"

8.19.2009

Through it all.



You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteeousness
And I look to You and
I wait on You


I'll sing to You Lord, a hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go, through it all
Hallelujah, hallelujah

8.16.2009

I simply thank You.





Into Your hands, I commit again,
All that I am, for You, Lord.
You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand.
And I am Yours, forever.

Jesus, I believe in You.
Jesus, I belong to You.
You're the reason that I live,
The reason that I sing,
With all I am.

I'll walk with You, wherever You go.
Through tears and joy,
I'll trust in You.
And I will live, in all of Your ways
And Your promises, forever.

I will worship,
I will worship You.




Thank God for everything, blessings, trials, guidance, troubles, tough times, everything. It builds me stronger each and everyday. I simply thank God that He is near. Storms and thunders in life cant beat me. I will win in this race, I won't give up. God is good. And I trust him 100%. Nothing can change my love for you, God. I'm the strongest when I'm in the hardest moment, all because of God's love.

8.15.2009

4th! Hee ~

By the way, I'm 4th on July competition 11 Second Club! Thanks to people that voted for me. Thanks to Wesley helping me rendering! Thank God!

Here's my final entry.

L o v e . L o v e ~





Happy couple years and couple months Wesley Chandler!

8.13.2009

its not exaggeration after all.



you know, cartoon always exaggerate character got scared by jumping off the ground? they're not exaggeration. it actually happened, at least to me. my sister 'knock' my door so hard, this poor little calista busy animating, jump off the bed got scared, so bad.

like this.

8.09.2009

I will rise.




I'm going through tough times, my family has problem that we have to face, and yeah, it’s hard. I prayed and felt that my prayer is just hitting the ceiling and felt that God didn’t listen. Of course not, He listens, but I felt that way. Then I read Purpose Driven Life, I was on chapter 14.

It’s about Job, how he felt that God didn’t say anything to him during his tough times. I can’t say it’s like my condition because mine now is nothing compared to Job’s. I learn from Job, he told God what he felt about his tough times, he’s ruined in people’s point of view but he still believe in God, believe that God is good, faithful and will help him somehow! Ha!

God is here when I need him. He didn’t really remove my problems, but He strengthens me. Again. He’s good. He’s faithful and somehow He will help my family through this hardship at the right times.

I remember a verse saying, He makes all things wonderful at the right time. Bible didn’t say in the end of time it would be wonderful, Bible said wonderful at the right time. I was praying waiting for God just to finish all this, yes I put hope in Him but I was wrong that I was waiting to the end. Suddenly God speaks to me through the verse that I once read somewhere in the bible, that God makes all things wonderful in HIS time. Who are we to judge when the right time for us?

Purpose Driven Life chapter 14 also mention some practical ways when God ‘seems’ to be far away. Tell God exactly how you feel. Focus on God’s never changing personality and promises. Believe that God keeps His promises. Remember what He’s done for us.

It hits me when I read explanation for focus on God’s never changing personality and promises; He’s good, He loves me, He’s with me, He knows what I experience, He cares, and He has good plan for my life.
Job’s condition is way worse than my family’s now, but He still able to hold on God’s promises and even praise Him. Wow. The power of God in him. If Job can do it, my family can do it too, I can do it too. Praise the Lord!

7.30.2009

Prayer Warrior (Pray, then Smile!)

Lots of things happening this very morning. The 'not so good' moments according to people's perspective. I'm pretty stressed at that moment. As I was going through every step of recovering, I prayed alone in my room. Pour out everything in tears to Him, because I can't even say anything anymore. More like a cry for help. After a while, then I phoned my other half and ask him to pray for me. I also ask my bible study friends to pray with me.

God talks to me through prayer that Wesley prayed for me, through song that was played at that moment, through the bible. I was looking for answers and strength in it and God is answering at the right time. He said through the bible, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)"

I found that verse at the very deep of slope that I might give up, but He lifted me again, He spoke to me, He told me that as long as I love Him still, all things work together for good, what ever that is.

I am now expecting the unexpected, something that's never in mind, (who ask for problems to be honest?) that's unthinkable, everything is for good. Just count on God for everything since He's the one that own our life.

Lots of things happening in life, but I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39) Amen. How peaceful is that? God is in control! =)

Yet again, I have friends to pray for me, I have God helping me pray, I have lots of prayer warriors, what more can I ask? =)

smile!

7.29.2009

11SecondClub




Yellow!
Sorry for not updating in a while, I've been busy with 11SecondClub, an monthly online animation competition.
Voting is allowed from 1st until 5th day of August. Please vote! It's fun seeing good animation around you. Happy <3

Here's my entry. It's called Red Watch-man. C&C are appreciated!

7.07.2009

Keep holding on.




Faith in myself reeled in nothing, but faith in God through prayer reeled in more than I can imagine!

That's what my other half share to me yesterday. I'm really happy and thankful that he now knows my Source of life and strength; and he can be my agent when I'm down and feel lost.

During this time of life, I felt lost, almost about everything. About career and family to be honest. It's actually probably NOT THAT BAD of a situation, even I know it's not. But for just a split second of my life, I didn't want to be tough. I'm confused about stuff that doesn't need to be confused about because I know He's in control. I just have to open my eyes and open doors for Him to close it and show me way. The thing is, I felt tired to open my eyes. Ha! Dilemma that doesn't even need to be one! Sigh..

ANYWAYS.. Enough weakness.

In my devotion, I read from 2 Timothy 4 : 7. It's when Paul was almost get persecuted and he reminded Timothy to be a good soldier of Christ. He said, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith."

WOW.. I read it couple times because God just 'slap' me with realization. That my live is not mine, it's His, and it's my duty to glorify Him with my live. What's the problem with rocks and storms in life? I'm not in control, GOD is.

So from now, I'm gonna keep these words in my heart, mind and soul.
"I want to fight a good fight, I want to finish the race, I want to keep the faith. And I will." So later, in the end of the day, I will say Paul's words with confident in front of Him, my God.

Faith in myself reeled in nothing, but faith in God through prayer reeled in more than I can imagine!

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7.05.2009

..HOT..



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6.29.2009

I think I'm Beautiful...





This felt so lonely. Sigh..

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6.28.2009

Misty and Mama

.. as Pandas

6.27.2009

Stuck.

This is how I feel right now. Stuck and confused.



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6.25.2009

iScream to Ice Cream


Yup, my youngest sister LOVES ice cream

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6.24.2009

Dancing for you






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6.23.2009

Faith is Real

I'm home now, in Indonesia.

I just came back from Singapore, to accompany my dad in his check up. Results will be sent through email in couple days, but generally my dad is healthy, just need more spirit to live and also encouragement. My mom? She's fine, just exhausted and overwhelmed with our condition and situation. But God's great, that's what we're putting faith on.

There's that one time, situation is kinda getting out of hand. In simple word, mentally exhausting. It was last Sunday. Almost didn't go to church but THANK GOD we did.

We came to church with broken hearts and problems. Prayed that God will help us, I don't know how will He helped us but we're sure He will. They played a song in quiet time before service, "Listen that Jesus is calling you" . I felt that God calmed me down right away, I cried, thanking Him for that. Really felt His presence in the right moment. Because without that, I don't think I will enjoy the service.

Then we sang more hymns, the lyric goes like, "Praise your God, Hallelujah Amen, Event though storms hitting you, God is your friend, Hallelujah Amen!"
and more hymns, "What a friend we have in Jesus".

It's like, God 'attack' me with His lovely presence. I never felt that way before. Well, I did, but not often. I guess when you're really come to God with true heart that you need Him to heal you, He will. He didn't really remove the problems away, no. But He change your heart and your perspective towards the problems.

The sermon was good. It's from Luke 19:1-10. One of the part that really hit my mind his definition of joyful heart. It's not about always smiling and not thinking about problems. It's about a steady heart towards Jesus facing hardships of life. It's about giving respect to Him that already died for our sins, what is human that He cares for us? Who am I that I question what happen in my life? I know He's good because He cares even about my feeling, when I broke down that morning. He fixed me.

Yes I have problems in my life, yes I broke down sometimes, but I know I have faith in Him that won't disappoint me. He listen to my prayers although He didn't always make things the way I want it, but somehow, it's always better for me in the end.

He's good, He's great. I don't know what I would be without Jesus. I already felt His guidance and His blessings in every kind of situation. How wouldn't I state that faith is real? ;D


**Pictures coming soon, still in the process of editing it. Thanks to Papa for the Adobe Photoshop Lightroom and the camera itself! Thanks to Wesley <3 for lending me his laptop and giving me support.**

And of course, thanks to God for blessing me with family and friends.



xoxo
calista

6.12.2009

Hong Kong Update!

Its amazing how God still talk to me in the plane. It wasn’t something that I prayed about or something, just got reminder from above. I was listening to You raise me up by Josh Groban. The lyric was saying, “I am strong, when I am on Your shoulder . You raise me up to more than I can be.” Wow!

It’s soo true. I AM strong when He lifts me up. And it’s always more than I expected happen to/from me. Amazing

Then I was listening again to Little Drummer Boy, still from Josh Groban.
Some lyrics (jumping around mode ON)
“I had no gift to lay before the King, So I play my best for Him, on my drum, Song to honor Him, Then He smiled at me”
Again, it’s so true. I have NOTHING to boast, totally nothing. But then he lifted me up and making me able to honor Him. D’oh, what else can I do than Honoring Him with what I have, from Him.

Wowww.. I’m just totally amazed how God speak to me thru song and it’s not even like gospel song.
(I tried looking for one in the library. None. So I listen to some Josh Grobanism. And got encouraged!)

I remember a friend of mine that’s in middle of hardship too, and (AGAIN) the song that’s playing is Don’t give up. You are loved. I made some sketch too that I think when I finalized it, will be cool. Heehhh

And ya, this early morning, in YVR airport, my other beloved half and I, were singing hymns, he he he. I’m glad that God made our ‘apartness’ memorable in His way.
Before he drove me to YVR, Vina and I also went for dinner at Wes’ place. AND, one thing you know, me and wes fallen asleep like two hibernated bears! Until our sisters (Vina and Gen) woke us up. Thanks girls! Phew. Almost missed the flight-ish.

But yeah, just an update from HK. Thank God I’m arrived with no danger and sickness.

6.09.2009

Starting The Day



Took this picture on our road trip. (stories coming soon!)

It was at an amazing camp site by His blessings, early in the morning, I woke up and thank God for the new day.

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5.19.2009

Canadian Bear


On Victoria day, me and my sister went to dimsum with Wesley's family. Then we went to our studio to show them around and show then what we're doing at work. We then went to downtown Vancouver to walk around, although it's a bit raining but it was fun! Went to gastown, sight seeing and window shopping. Weee..!

5.18.2009

Counting on God

A really good song, I need encouragement from above during this tough time.

Counting on God


I'm in a fight not physical
And I'm in a war
But not with this world
You are the light that's beautiful
And I want more
I want all that's Yours

Joy unspeakable that won't go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
'Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God

I am counting on
I am counting on God

The miracle of Christ in me
Is the mystery that sets me free
I'm nothing like I used to be
Open up your eyes you'll see

5.15.2009

And all will see..

Last night I was really confused with my life, wondering how I am gonna do all this regarding things that happening. But then I fell to prayer, can't say anything, mostly just say, "I don't know God, I really don't know. You know everything, please give me strength to do this. I know you're with me. Please don't let me lose sight on the hope that You gave me.. "

This evening I went to church and sang "How Great is Our God". I sing this song a lot but this time, it was different.

I felt that God spoke to me regarding my condition, He said, "Don't worry, you know I'm in control, and you know I love you. Give it all to me, your thought, anxiousness about future, your burdens, everything. You just wait, all will see how great is your God. "

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God


Yes. God is great, I can say it boldly because I know that everything is in His control. I know everything is still behind clouds of uncertainty, but I certainly know and fully believe that everything will be for His Glory which is means it's gonna be the best for me, for my family, for everyone. Amen.

5.09.2009

Ups and Downs

So amazing how a beautiful day can be ruined of one single act. Of me. I'm really down right now. I failed again. It's a downer for me. So many beautiful things today, and I ruined it. I'm sorry.

5.07.2009

Lenka's Show - I don't want my money back! =D



Wesley and I and some friends went to Lenka's concert on Tuesday night and we liked it a lot. She's really funny and sweet. The band is totally awesome. Despite the loooooong wait, the show was very good, crowds was not too bad, cool place.

Some pictures..



-The band member-











-I got the music book signed! =)


Thanks for coming to Vancouver Lenka! Come back soon ^^

5.01.2009

He's always been faithful to me


Hes Always Been Faithful - Sara Groves



Morning by morning I wake up to find
the power and comfort of God's hand in mine.
Season by season I watch him amazed, in
awe of the mystery of his perfect ways

CHORUS:
All I have need of his hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me

I can't remember a trial or a pain he did
not recycle to bring me gain. I can't
remember one single regret in serving
God only and trusting his hand

CHORUS

This is my anthem, this is my song, the
theme of the stories I've heard for so long.
God has been faithful, he will be again.
His loving compassion, it knows no end.

CHORUS



Things may seen out of hand for others, but as for me and my family, we know God is in control. Praise The Lord. It's all for His glory.

4.30.2009

Only Hope

I feel uncertain and hopeless
I'm confused
It feels like an endless race
I feel fooled by nonsense courage

I want to close my eyes
to what others say
and really just focus on you God
But it's hard, it's very hard
I need your help

You, with the true courage
I realize I can't trust anyone
You, have the true hope
I realize I can't depend on anything.

4.28.2009

He answered me (yet again!) ^^~



As you all know I'm getting married soon. Wesley and I planned to do marriage course in our church. We asked one of our pastor and he said he will let us know if it's already fully booked or there's still space. If not, he's gonna arrange it to be this September.

You know, I was a bit confused honestly. Not much of scared, but just don't know if this is really God's plan. I mean, everything works out together, a proof that it is God's plan. But you know, as human, I'm worried that this is not His plan.

So I prayed on Sunday night, asking God if this is really His plan for us to get married soon, if it is then maybe we can get the marriage course as soon as possible too so I feel confident in doing this.

I went working on Monday, didn't really think about this marriage course anymore, just like do my day. Animating ^^
Then Wesley let me know that the pastor just called and say we're starting the marriage course THIS Sunday! I was like, O_O . Wow, it is God's plan. And after Wesley told me that I just feel really peaceful and confident.

I can't say anything but "WOW, Thanks God!"


Another cool song of Chris Tomlin, Indescribable.


Indescribable (Arriving Album Version) - Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

4.26.2009

Un-comfort Zone

I'm so down and ready to drown
I can't stand it anymore
But nothing I can do
I just have to do it

No matter how much I cry
It won't change anything
I want to quit
But I have my world depend on me

I want to stop
But I'm scared
Scared of the result, scared of changes
This is my un-comfort zone

I wrote this in my notebook as I was really confused with stuff in my small little world. But again, somehow I was listening to this song. It's like I fell down on the ground, but He lifted me up ^^. Taught me to be satisfied in life.


*all this happening at work when I zone out animating. ^^p*


Enough (Acoustic) (See The Morning SE Album Version) - Chris Tomlin

Updates!

SO, God showed His awesome miracles to our family, yet again! ^^

My dad is recovering from the strokes. MRI test result showed that his darker mark in his brain (caused by strokes) is almost disappeared. My mom told me few weeks ago. Just go the time to post. Yes, he's still in process of recovering, indeed, but things work out really well. Thanks for all your prayers. Praise God for everything. Lots of stuff happening in my life, happiness and sadness, but when I just hang on to Him, really just put hope 100% in Him, it doesn't seem too hard because I know I have the ultimate not-gonna-fail hope.

I also see a dear friend of mine experienced hardship in life and I'm really proud of her. Yes she doesn't get what she wants, but seeing her rise again with her hope in Christ, seeing her facing it, hanging on His promises, encourages me a lot.
I heard stories about how God works through testimonies from bible study friends also makes me grow in faith.

Truly, God works in ways that I can't even wonder how this is happening. And yes, my small little world was cluttered with troubles that seems like there's the no way out. But yes! God works in His time and somehow miracles happen to those who believe in Him! ^^ *happie happie happie*

Check this out

Mark 9: 21-24
Mark 11:22-26

I got those verses when I did my night devotion; I was really depressed and just really cried out to God saying , 'I can't do this alone, I need Your help, please lift all these from me. Why can't You heal my dad? Please.'

Mark 11:24, Jesus said, "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

Two of my friends said that to me too, but I didn't really pray with full faith power for my dad, but then I got Jesus said that straight to me through the bible when I was really down. The Holy Spirit put courage in me to pray that way saying, "God I know you heal my dad." And yeah, He heal my dad! Even doctors was like, "Wow, this is truly a miracle from God".

Can't say anything anymore. Thanks God!

4.03.2009

in His time




In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful in His time.
Lord, please show me everyday,
as You're teaching me Your way
that You'll do just what You say in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring.
May each song I have to sing
be to You a lovely thing in Your time.


It is a lovely Sunday school song that I like since ever. I was singing praise tonight and played this song again, and I feel the Lord just strengthen me for everything that I've been through.

My dad has been sick for 3 years, and I barely see him since I live in the other side of the world. I can't really do anything, except praying for him. I love him so much. And I'm really proud of my mom. For me, she's the perfect wife that I always look up to.

I'm really really sad, especially I just got another 'not so good' news again about him. Just FEEL like screaming and asking God, why is this happening to our family? But as I listen to this song again, I felt God already answer my question (that I don't really want to ask God directly). He works in ways I can't understand, but He knows the perfect timing and He will make everything beautiful.
He might not give me what I want, but He KNOWS exactly what I need, what the family needs, and I have faith in Him. I'm so glad I have Someone that really be there for me and just, really, know the perfect timing. I've seen lots of His perfect timing in my life and yes, He opens my eyes to really realize how everything works together perfectly.

Yes, I know my dad is still sick, I know things are still tangled. But I also know that He's gonna give our family what's the best in His eyes which is mean the best for our family. And as for now, I know He holds my hand, my dad's hand, my mom's and my sisters'. He's with us.

Yes I'm sad, but I feel peaceful. That's a feeling that I can't really describe.

4.01.2009

Easter at Willingdon Church


Good Friday Service
Friday, April 10th 2009
11.00 am and 1.00 pm

Easter Service
Saturday April 11th 2009
6.30 pm

Sunday, April 12th 2009
8.30am ; 10.00 am ; 11.30 am


Willingdon Church

4812 Willingdon Avenue
Burnaby BC, Canada
V5G 3H6


Still - Hillsong

3.30.2009

lovely marker <3 <3



my lovely markers with some doodles as i capture my animation at work.

i have a Bun!



my first attempt to make a 'messy bun' ends up with a puny bun. still good still good ^^

3.29.2009

3.08.2009

numb

3.02.2009

i (heart) HON'S

Quote of the day (by David Shum)


Whenever you feel depressed because your animation,
example :
"I can't animate!"
"What am I doing here???"
"ARGHHHHHHH.... "


. . etc.

That's when you improve
That's when you still have room to grow,

and that's why you see all your stuff aren't that good as before.

So cheer up!

by The David Shum

2.28.2009

Be still, and know that I am God Psalm 46:10

Sometimes, God can be so unpredictable in the way He teaches me,
but I know for sure, that His love and guidance is always with me.

Just a moment ago, I'm just feel overwhelmed with anxiety of what's gonna happen next. Jobs, family, health, everything! I kept reminding myself that I won't be alone, God is always with me, God holds the future, but I felt like, it's only ME saying that to calm myself. Fake.

Then as always, I turn on computer to read my devotion tonight (every night I read the bible from www.rbc.org). Then the title for today's devotion is Quiet Time, with Psalm 46:10 below it. Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God."

I'm stunned and I can't say anything anymore; overwhelmed with joy that I can't explain. I was like, whaa..?????????!!!!
I feel so baaadd I don't depend on HIM at all. Man, seriously, if God is in my side, what could happen to me?! (my very own "amazed-and-still-stunned" interpretation of Hebrew 13 : 6) =D

Sometimes we're just TOOO busy with our own life that we FORGOT about God. Forget about God that owns everything in the universe! We need quiet time with God, to rest our mind and soul and REFOCUS to God. What's the point in life if we're so far away from God??

Really, I cant change anything by worrying about stuff, but I can change everything with focus on God and not the problem. I don't even HAVE a problem. If I just be as close as possible to God, (and He's not far at all really) then what should I be worried about?

I have this urge to write this post A.S.A.P. so pardon me for any grammar mistake. :p

May God bless you all.

-calista-

2.27.2009

One of Papi's amazing House Design

My parents wanted me to make slide show of a house that my dad designed and constructed.
Here is the link to the slide show.

http://www.calistopolis.com/alamsutera/


All pictures taken by Wesley Chandler.